My last post was in 2011. 4 years of my life undocumented.  I guess I could go back through facebook - four years of facebook - and pick out the "funnies". That tends to be what most of this blog was I guess.  I don't know. I haven't reread it in awhile.  However, I do want to document somethings off the top of my head and then maybe continue blogging from this point forward,

The name the 4th shoe came from the chaos that was our life after the twins were born. I thought I was an inadequate mother (and I still do) that could not handle what a normal mother of twins could handle. However, we've come to learn that our twins are gifted individuals.  Sam was diagnosed with ADHD and for awhile I though he had ASD.  Seemed textbook for awhile. social issues, fears, high intelligence etc.  formerly known as Asperger's.....   however, something I read lead me down a different path to childhood anxiety and he is now in therapy.  I mean, does it really make a difference what it's called.  I'm trying to raise him to be a happy productive member of society.  He tells me I should have to make him happy. that makes me cringe.  as his mother I WANT him to be happy.

Other things have happened over the last few years as well.  I lost both my father and my mother.  My mother died on feb 1, 2014 at Geisinger.  it was a torturous time for me. I still have nightmares about it. I should write about it sometime. or maybe it would be better to let all that negativity go...
anyway, before she died, she looked at me and told me to write her life down in a book. If you had any idea of this woman's life.  I wish I knew someone I could give the main points to and have them write.  I just don't think it's in me. Sam's latest is that he wants to be a writer.  I don't know....

Noah is still into music and drama. He is playing trumpet in the band and takes piano lessons.  He has been in many many plays and this weekend will play his largerst part as the emperor in Little Red Robin Hood.  It's a hysterical play.